Someone just shoot me.
Hello everyone. Yes, as you can see by the title, I am not in a good mood. I am overwhelmed, frustrated, pissed off, etc, etc. I am overwhelmed because, well because of life at the moment. I keep thinking things have to get better. There has been nothing on the house, although I do have a couple of people looking at it on Wednesday (for renting purposes). I guess anything at this point would be better than it just sitting there draining me of money. I am frustrated about my son Cameron. My husband went to a parent/teacher conference today and the outcome is not good. Up until this point I thought he was doing well. Apparentely not. We are told that he is in the lowest percentile of his class. I feel like an idiot because I didn’t realize just how much things have changed since I was in kindergarten. They told my husband that he needs to be able to read by the end of kindergarten or he won’t move on. He has been given spelling words every week that we have been working on, but holy shit. My memories of kindergarten are socializing with other kids and learning to not eat the glue (of which by the way, I had gotten a note that Cameron did lick paste off his fingers-we can just add that to the list). Now these 5 yr olds are reading and spelling? I guess I am just naive. Anyway, so I started trying to assist Cameron on sounding words out and my husband informs me that they don’t do it that way anymore. I looked at him like he was insane, so then he goes on to say that the teachers are trying to get them to memorize instead of working on phonics. When did this happen? “Hooked on Phonics worked for me!!” Does anybody else remember that? So I feel like a gigantic failure as a mother. I have not prepared my child for kindergarten and the way the school system works now. The teachers also commented about Cameron’s, shall we say, sensitive side. He does breakdown every now and then and has little crying spells, I will give them that. I don’t know exactly what to do about them. I don’t want to get angry with him, I can’t punish him. Why can’t children come with a manual? Oh and did I mention that he isn’t eating there? His eating habits are beyond picky and his teacher told Mike that Cameron complains of his stomach hurting everyday. I am sure it is, he’s hungry!!! So now I am packing a lunch for him. That is probably the problem with his lack of focus. Cameron eats such a small variety of food and I had hoped the lunches at school would force him to try new things. However, my child is unbelievably stubborn and would rather go hungry. Lastly, I am pissed off at myself. I have been terrible with eating, and I have not exercised in I don’t know how long. Right now I feel horrible, I look horrible and I am very disgusted with myself. I really just feel like crying. Actually, right now I am.
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