Heather

Hello everyone. Yes, as you can see by the title, I am not in a good mood. I am overwhelmed, frustrated, pissed off, etc, etc. I am overwhelmed because, well because of life at the moment. I keep thinking things have to get better. There has been nothing on the house, although I do have a couple of people looking at it on Wednesday (for renting purposes). I guess anything at this point would be better than it just sitting there draining me of money. I am frustrated about my son Cameron. My husband went to a parent/teacher conference today and the outcome is not good. Up until this point I thought he was doing well. Apparentely not. We are told that he is in the lowest percentile of his class. I feel like an idiot because I didn’t realize just how much things have changed since I was in kindergarten. They told my husband that he needs to be able to read by the end of kindergarten or he won’t move on. He has been given spelling words every week that we have been working on, but holy shit. My memories of kindergarten are socializing with other kids and learning to not eat the glue (of which by the way, I had gotten a note that Cameron did lick paste off his fingers-we can just add that to the list). Now these 5 yr olds are reading and spelling? I guess I am just naive. Anyway, so I started trying to assist Cameron on sounding words out and my husband informs me that they don’t do it that way anymore. I looked at him like he was insane, so then he goes on to say that the teachers are trying to get them to memorize instead of working on phonics. When did this happen? “Hooked on Phonics worked for me!!” Does anybody else remember that? So I feel like a gigantic failure as a mother. I have not prepared my child for kindergarten and the way the school system works now. The teachers also commented about Cameron’s, shall we say, sensitive side. He does breakdown every now and then and has little crying spells, I will give them that. I don’t know exactly what to do about them. I don’t want to get angry with him, I can’t punish him. Why can’t children come with a manual? Oh and did I mention that he isn’t eating there? His eating habits are beyond picky and his teacher told Mike that Cameron complains of his stomach hurting everyday. I am sure it is, he’s hungry!!! So now I am packing a lunch for him. That is probably the problem with his lack of focus. Cameron eats such a small variety of food and I had hoped the lunches at school would force him to try new things. However, my child is unbelievably stubborn and would rather go hungry. Lastly, I am pissed off at myself. I have been terrible with eating, and I have not exercised in I don’t know how long. Right now I feel horrible, I look horrible and I am very disgusted with myself. I really just feel like crying. Actually, right now I am.

Hello friends. Well another season of football is starting off and I am so excited. I am a Steeler fan and something about fall and football makes me warm and fuzzy all over. I look forward to football every year, I absolutely love it. I am sick of summer heat and I am more than ready for fall to start. Bring on the sweatshirts and hot apple cider!!

Anyway, last week was a doozy. Cameron and I both had a stomach bug and vomited like it was 1999. I actually missed school on Tuesday and was not happy about it. Tuesday was a clinical day in the hospital and I am currently on the oncology unit. Those patients have enough to deal with already without getting a stomach bug from me on top of it. School is still going great and I had one of my finals this past Wednesday. I am proud to say I got a 98 and finished out the class with an overall 97. Now, for the other 3 finals that are left!!!

Cameron is doing great in kindergarten and fantastic with the bus. Justice is still missing her big brother but will adjust soon I’m sure.

As for me, I am a little sad these days. No info on the house yet, the IRS is still looming over my head, money is very tight and I am not giving all that I have to losing this weight. I am discouraged at the moment, I have to admit. I can only blame myself, I have not exercised in such a long time. School, kids, studying, baths & bedtimes-all excuses, I know. I know it has to be squeezed in somewhere and I know that I am not really trying to find out where. I am disappointed in myself and my lack of effort. Ladies (& Gents!), a little motivation please. For those of you that have it coming out of your ears, could you spare some?!?

Enough whining. Take care friends, and have a great week.

I am not kidding when I say that I am tired. This week was a long one. Between school for me and Cameron starting kindergarten, I am drained. So Cam’s first full day by himself was Wednesday. I got him on the bus, and as they pulled away I started crying like a small child. This went on for a few hours. People at school were cool about it, they smiled, gave me hugs and gave assurances that Cam would be alright. He was. He loves riding the bus. Justice is missing her brother during the day. I guess it will just take some getting used to.

So, my babysitter may quit. Nice, huh? I talked to her about her hourly rate now that she only has Justice and Cam is in school. She said she needs to think about it. 

I am waiting on this guy who may buy my house. Apparently, my house is in the running with 2 others. Keep your fingers crossed.

Well, I need to go study. I start finals next week, yay. Have a great night, be well friends.

Hi everyone. Ya like my title. Here’s my explanation. I am so pissed at my realtor I could scream. Wait, I think I will.

Ok, this woman is not putting forth the effort. Now before anyone starts, I am fully aware of the housing market. That being said, it seems that since I currently live 2 1/2 hours from the house on the market, I am a sucker. Needless to say, we don’t get up there on a regular basis to check things out. I have been in a battle over the freakin for sale sign. The problem is, I don’t have one up. This you know what, still has not put a sign in front of my house. It has been 5 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have taken up complaining to the owner, and I am taking a stance. I want her off my house and another agent placed on or I am going somewhere else. Ok, I am done.

Not much else to report. School is still going well and I am making friends. My friend TJ has just joined BuddySlim and I am really excited about it. She is such a sweetie and I am so glad I met her.

That’s all for now kids. Take care.

Hello everyone. Well another week has come and gone. School has continued to go well and the tests keep a’rollin. I am very proud of my grades this week, 2 100%’s and a 96%. I am really enjoying school and am getting better with balancing everything.

Mike was away all week and this week was tougher than usual. It is really hard when you are the only one dealing with everything. My hats off to all of you single moms out there. There is a special place for you ladies.

The kids are doing good. My daughter did however get bit in the face by my babysitter’s daughter. No broken skin but one hell of a bruise. I didn’t flip out. I know that in any given situation, the roles could be reversed and it could be my kid doing something horrible. Speaking of babysitters, ok, I love her to death. She takes care of my children, she takes them places and they like her. BUT…. ok, I will just say it. She is always late, which is very irritating. She turns my air conditioner way down, I come home to it being 77 degrees when I have it at 70. Now, she is always cold (she is little) and I just want to shove a Big Mac in her mouth, but come on. It takes the rest of the day after I get home to get the house cooled back down. My central air runs for hours nonstop. My problem is with my electric bill. I think she is using my kid’s diapers on her kid. Now, I don’t have a problem now and then, but we are going through diapers like there is no tomorrow. Mike was the first to suspect something and I said there was no way, but after this past week, I think he may be right. Lastly, the food, milk and oj. I don’t want to sound like a bitch but, I pay her very well, and her kids are great, and she comes to my house, but we are going through milk and oj and various food items like I don’t know what. All the kids, including mine, drink constantly. I can’t keep the milk and oj stocked. I am putting out quite a bit of money on groceries and her pay. Am I being unreasonable? Please tell me the truth.

On that note, I will end my rant. Have a good day.

Hey guys, boy I sure do miss you. It is just so hard to keep up with school and kids and read everyone’s blogs. Just so you all know, I read your blogs, maybe a few at a time to catch up, but I do eventually read them. I just don’t always have the ability to comment.

School is still going good. I think the kids are adjusting better to my schedule. Justice mostly, and by the way, she is feeling physically better. She is still cranky at times and I am beginning to think the fits are a glimpse of what is to come with the terrible 2’s.

So, yes you guessed it, judging by the title, I lost another lb. I am happy. The last few lbs. that I have lost have been purely on changing my eating habits. I don’t restrict myself of anything, I just make better choices, and I think before I eat. I can’t lie, I haven’t exercised for awhile. I mean really exercise. I am still trying to figure out how to get all that needs done in 1 day and school and study. But I must say, I am proud that just by changing my eating patterns, I have dropped poundage. Now, once I get that exercise in there, I will be rockin’.

Take care and be well friends. Have a great night, and wonderful day tomorrow.

Hey everyone. Whew, I am tired.  Another week done, well almost. I can’t believe it, I have had 8 tests already so far. There is a test everyday, and not just a little one, it is a full fledge, lots of questions test. I ain’t scared, I’m rockin’ a 97% average so far. LOL. Seriously, I feel really good about it. I know it is going to be a long year, but I think that I will do pretty good. Now, ask me next week and see how I feel then! I am still trying to get the rhythm down. I have kept up on laundry and daily household stuff while balancing the checkbook, doing bills, kids and studying. I realize that I may not always be able to do this. Mike has been away all week, he comes back tomorrow.

I have to admit that I was losing patience today with the kids. My daughter has been a particular booger lately and I am not sure why. Last weekend she seemed to have picked up a bug. She had been running a fever off and on, nothing high, and also had diarrhea (not enough though to worry about dehydration). Since then she has not been quite herself, wanting to be held alot, fussy and sleeping more than usual during naps. Now the diarrhea has backed off, not quite what I’d call normal poops, but not runny (sorry about the graphic detail!). These last few days have been very, very fussy. Last week Mike was on vacation and was home with the kids while I was at school. This week, since he has been away, the kids have been with the sitter. I am wondering if she is going through a separation thing. I have been home with her since she was born. Maybe the bug and the anxiety of me being away just happened to coincide? If she isn’t herself this weekend, I will just have to make an appointment next week with the doctor to check it out. What do you guys think?

Well, it is late for me, I need to get a shower and go to bed. I need to be fresh for my test tomorrow!!! Have a great night guys and a great day tomorrow.

I say wow because I now have been at school for almost 2 weeks. I am trying to pick up this new role of student and add it to my other roles. It is tough. I am fairly tired when I get home and the late afternoon and evening seem like eternity. I have had 3 tests so far and have gotten off to a great start. I really like it.

I have missed you guys, sorry I haven’t been on. I am trying to find the balance. I’ll get it though. I am gonna study now. Have a great night guys.

Well, the time has finally come. For those of you that have followed my saga, I have been waiting a long time for this. I have had  several moves and false starts, so at the moment, I am in shock that I actually start tomorrow. Decisions have been extremely hard to make the last few years, and I’m not completely sure that we have been right on all of them. Even now, staying in Huntington and going to school here, was a difficult one. Apparently the store in Morgantown is going to have an opening for GM. Again, for those of you that remember, Mike was up for that position at that store exactly 1 yr ago. He didn’t get it then, ended up getting Huntington and here we are. I had to give up my acceptance to the school there, we had to put the house up for sale, etc. Well, the house is still up for sale and the position is now open. Mike was given the word that if he wanted it, he could have it. The easy thing here would be to go back and live in our house and he would be working right there. This however would mean that I, again, would give up my acceptance, wait another year, and hope that the school I turned down would consider me again for next year. Financially, moving back would be better, especially with the IRS audit. But, we have decided against it. I am trying to look at the bigger picture here. Once I get through school, we will have a second income, and financially life would have to be better. This means another year of extreme uncertainty, really scraping to pay a mortgage and rent and utilities for both on top of school and childcare and all the other regular bills that come every month. Please pray for my house to sell. I really need it to go. I am not trying to make any money on it, I just need it gone. If any of you live in the Morgantown/Fairmont WV area, and are looking for a house, GO SEE IT!!!!! LOL.

Enough with that. Other than that stuff (which is more than enough, thank you), not much else going on. The kids are great, my husband loves me, and we are all healthy. Those are the things that really count once you cut through all this other shit. Keep your chins up and have a great day.

Hello everyone. Had a nice week.  Cameron has spent the week at VBS and has really enjoyed it. It was nice to have something for him to do. It is getting closer and closer to the start of school. I start on July 1st. I am really excited to finally be starting. Not much else going on here at the moment. I did lose another pound, so I am pretty pumped about that. I have to admit, other than trying to control portions and only eating when I am hungry, I am not trying that hard. I am not exactly proud of that, I could be further with some exercise. But I am not going to beat myself up about it, at least I am going in the right direction.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend. Take care of yourselves.